A story of a girl.

What a depression.. should I just tell you a story?

Title: Dumb girl

It was a bright sunny day that a girl was brought by her school to a trip about geography. She was so happy until she suddenly met this young charming boy about her age after getting off from the bus. Her first impression at him was *a foreigner*. His face are as white as the Chinese, soft as a baby and pretty than an ordinary girl could be. She could not help it but keep on searching for him and when she did, gazing at him was what she do the most. From then on, she has the urge to find out who he is and full details on that guy.

She found everything she wants about him, his name, class, age and he's not even a foreigner. At first it was just a crush.. like she had done with many more guys. She stalk him a bit, just a bit, she keep on looking at him whenever she bumped into him, and there she was, trying to create her existence in his world. But it never worked.

It was in a year and a half before finishing high school, when she started to like him. His smile was what she loves the most. But soon afterwards, when she found out more about him, he was actually one that would be last suitable for her. But she believes that liking someone does not mean that you have to be together with them, just as long as it could make you happy, nothing else matter. And that, she just keep on liking him till the end of her high school days.

When she finally got a result from her Cambridge examination, she was picked as one of the best student in that year. Well, to be exact, the 'last' best student for the school. It was such a joyous day for receiving an awards when her parents got to see her on stage receiving the presents. She didn't know what difficulties are at that time and just happily standing above the ground. It was even happier for her when she got to greet her crush's mother. It was thoroughly the best day of her life and yet, she still haven't talked to her crush.

Her happiness does not end there when she got to proceed her college life with her crush. That was the day when she starts a new life to not became someone she used to be. She was fully determined than half of her other colleague and are ready to take any responsibilities. That was when she got to experienced different emotions.. and people.

She met more new friends, her old friends and met someone who loves kpop just as much as her. She begun her unimportant life in college to find someone smarter than her to be her friend as to make her life easier. She found one on orientation but that girl was just as weird as she was and therefore, F is the first new friend she had found on the day.

As much as she found an excitement on the first day of college, she was quite astounded to see her crush having one same class with her. It feels like a dream came true when she have this thought of fate that gets them together. An ecstacy fill over her life but then she fears that it will affect her study and yes, it does. Though she sat in the front and it does not seem to affect her concentration on lecturer's explanation, a crush could still makes you concerned while having to sit in the same room with them. If you know what I meant. She kept on focusing on her angle to not look so fat from the back and that, her concentration was fading bit by bit. As much as she wish he is not there, that's as much as grateful she felt that he was there.

It was not until recently that she became fully obsessed with him. There are reason behind it where she prefers not to reveal it here. It was a truly an obsession when she begun to stalked him everyday and mostly think about him.

Whenever she wokes up, he was the first to appear in her mind. It does not feel right when she didn't see him for a day. She even knows every single class and block that he goes to and she always looks for him when she's on her way to class and when she has the free time. Only then, she realized that the guy was not her crush anymore.. but her first love, she just fell in love.

If you don't believe it, she even stalked him at his house. What a dumb girl she is for looking at someone who would never love her back. That was probably why she never has the guts to even talk to him. Every single thing that he does, even for just a slight thing, could already make her life fly in the air. That was how much she loved him, just how much she cared for him.

However, it all ended when she decides not to love him anymore. She did not remember why she decides so but she did. It did not worked. That was the hardest thing she could ever done, trying to shove him out from her insignificant life. She kept on trying and trying and it takes a really long time till she finally gets over him. There are always an obstacle appeared whenever she tries to forget him especially when she still had to see him everyday in class.

In the end, she never regrets on loving him but she regret not knowing the 'real' him in the first place. I have loved you great man, but it all ended now.. for good.

:D hows the story? hmmm quite boring eyy.. just to let you know, that dumb girl is.. me.

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